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    I was lost in thoughts of the future, thinking about things i would do, about people i would meet, and about how I would be in times of yet to come. Lost in these thoughts, I was ironically reminded of my past. A remanence of my long ago past, a blurred vision for a future soon to arrive. It was seeing an old friend, a friend of several years ago. I remembered him quite well, his face still edged in my memories.    I went to him for an formal greeting, for a little"Hey". A moment passed, but he just starred at me. Then Came his reply..."Hey," he said. But I knew those words were empty, for I knew he had forgotten me. Then at that moment

Since I've been at this place, I've been pretty down and depressed. I couldn't find anything that attracted me on this island. I've just felt as if I was in an absolute solitude. I did not wanted anyone around me to know of my internal pain, so I hid it. I hid all of the solitude and suffering with empty smiles and hollow laughter. But i think I might've finally found something here...something I would look forward to each and everyday. Something that would fill the skies with beautiful crimson red, divine gold, and other colors that makes it seem as if it is the heavens themselves. Just getting the chance to observe this for mere minutes, or

For a long time I had thought that I was happy, blinded behind the deception of youth...I believed that I was happy. Also for a time I believed that I had a purpose, blinded by the deception and lies of others. In my times of youth I had believed in these things, but soon enough reality caught up with me. I was enlightened to the reality of my surroundings, and I gained realization of how cruel the world we live in truly is. This all made me question myself, am i truly happy living like this? Do I really have a purpose in this wretched life? For days I kept asking these questions again and again to myself. Now I believe I have the answers...I